SHOOT the PAIN

2005-06-10T14:03:00.000+08:00

hello.

so im home.
just to tell
the people( even if there is no one reading it)

im stopping here.

so yeah.
i shall post the address if i ever
start another one.

yeah.
so it goodbye.
this blog address had loads loads loads
of heartache drama.

which kinda sucks hard now.

goodbye.

much HUBBA HUBBA & LOVE.

-elyssa

2005-06-04T02:16:00.000+08:00

gee,it feels darn good to be
sitting in bed typing this entry out.

the sun , sand and the beach in like 10 hours
or so?
cant wait for that
then its off to KL for shoe shopping.

i know im tired
but im just waiting for
that favv jetplane
to call before 5am

my eyes sting like fuck right now.
never mind.

weeeeell,
i wanna redo my whole stinky gay
blue room.
with lime green.
a day bed.
new desks for studying
cuz i have totally no space for books
an antique looking dresser
with a funky mirror.

okay,my budget is like 500 bucks.
and i wanna start learning how to
take real pictures.
with a real camera.

i need black and white photographs.
ikea it is for everything i need.

i miss my besties like tons.

my bro has got a new girlfriend.
ugh.
sick rich biyatchhh.
all the more i should tax from her.
HELL YEAH!

to know that,the guy you used
to go, goo goo ga ga over
did not like you at all
and yet claims that he loves you
and bull shit.
is total DICKHEAD.
(?) no one in particular,you mofos.

mass deception.
void deck kids rocks my bare balls.
we shall go steal some slippers.

2005-06-02T23:08:00.000+08:00

"If I kissed you
Would you lose track of time
Would you feel a surge of happiness
Running up your spine
Would you run naked in the street
with a tattoo of my name on your behind
If I kissed you.
Oh, if I kissed you
Yeah, if I kissed you..."

i felt like a total dork
sitting in the train
smiling to myself
about the most silliest conversation
we had 10 hours ago.

the whole chalet
was fun yet we run into
some problems.
ughh.
didnt sleep the whole night
just looked at friends falling asleep.
hmm,sweet really.

breakfast at burger king was
dashed.
was so darn looking forward to that,
but anyways.all of us were dead tired.
so yeah,
home it was.

-start.
standing together watching planes
taking off and landing.
hand in hand.
one of the many moments
that felt like nothing else would matter.

glancing occasionally to her left
noticing those deep set eyes
and the dimples that
lights up when he smiles.

-end.

and ill be away in tioman
from sat till next tuesday.
TOORAH

2005-05-31T21:23:00.000+08:00

IM A HAAAPPPPPYYY GIRRRL !

OOOOOH YEAH
i got a new MP3.
WHOOOOPEEE
HOOFUCKENRAYYY!
(considering i did VERYYY badly for mye,
i love my momma like many many many many many)

its my new pretty pretty baby.
to go with my LANYARD.
HOOOFUCKENRAYYY NOT.

still pretty chirpy, that mum got me
a quiksliver lanyard.
so fucken skimmer.
damn it.
no idea what im gonna do with it.
UGH.

tommorow is class BBQ,
ohh yeaaaaaa,i hope im bringing camera.

okayy,im gonna waste the mp3 batt
after charging for like 3478534 hours.
FOOSH.

HOOFUCKENRAYYY!

2005-05-30T16:48:00.000+08:00

i hope you are still free on friday,

at the end of the week.

its always the best day.

if its gonna be with you,

its even more beautiful.

promised of sunsets

and silly bets.

perfect timming before my trip.

i cant wait for friday.
you are too.
FRIDAAAYYYYYY.

2005-05-29T22:17:00.000+08:00

"..getting thru the night
singing love songs over the phone.
not sleeping till we would see the sunrise.
sharing something we found a few days ago.
still shy to tell.
sweetheart,we belong together,you know..."

its that feeling buzzing in my head
whenever i talk to you.
i know it too well.
maybe it is
maybe its not.

are you free on 3rd june?
4.35 pm?
because we can watch the sunset and its cool.
where?
west coast park.

you are the sweetest, really.
yeahh.
we could come up with silly bets and all.
and we could go steal some slippers.
HAHAHA.

<3 sweetest.

2005-05-20T00:47:00.000+08:00

been landing into loads of free mp3.
coool.

results sucks big time
BOOAHAHAH.
failed CHINEEEESE badly,
its all good though.
never ever good in THAT subject.

and YES,
i PASSED MY POA.
JOY TO THE WORLD
JOY TO THE WORLD!

i cant sleeeep.
because im still thinking about the
JAPAN EXCHANGE.

and im heading to tioman during the holidaysss
COOOOL.

RAHH RAHH *jumps in mid air

im still hyperr.

2005-05-16T15:29:00.000+08:00

EHWAK EHWAK EHWAK.

GELEK GELEK
EHHHH EHHHHH.

ok.i decided on being a WAK WAK
when i grow up.
my mum cant stand this shit at home.
HAHAHHA.

EHWAK EHWAH.
i got news that im gonna have
a FIGHTING FISH.
i hope it doesnt commit suicide
like the last one.
BOO YAH.
i wanna see fishes MATE
HORNY YEAAAAAAAAA.
no no,its EHWAH EHWAH , HORNY.

so today was the LAST DAY OF EXAM.
overrated during uppersec.
the joy last only in lower sec.

FRIDAY WAS COOOOOOOL
went out with the usuals.
SHOP SHOP SHOP.
MATCHING STUFF.
COOOOOOOOL.

no pictures = un-willy-wonker.
i need total supply of battries.
im a BATTRY THEIF cuz my DAD said so.
BOO YAH.

GELEK GELEK.
im gone,

2005-05-09T22:22:00.000+08:00

im need to be pissed drunk.
ughh.
fuck physics.
BOOHOOHOO.

i need to get a hold of myself.
im off to study physics.
FUHHHH.

-start.

These nights I get high just from breathing.
When I lie here with you I'm sure that I'm real,like that firework over the freeway.
I could stay here all day but that's not how you feel.

she feel so used by you.

cheated to be exact,cheated of her feelings for you.

now that you are with another girl.

she a new abuse.

you told her forever ; lies

she tells her best friend.

worst beast ever said best friend.

you were all she ever thought of.

one of the best.

people do change.

you change into a beast .

always trying to outdo each move you make.

never ever misled a girl ; she says

you are a GONER.

I'll carry this piece of you with me

Because all I can say tonight

is that I hate you

But it would be all right

-end.

2005-05-06T16:38:00.000+08:00

so much for being us.
so much for not meaning what you said.
damn it.
ugh.

okayy.
done with mt and ss.
such an ass.

zaw is so effing cute.
CUTEEE.
we sing rainbows almost everyday.
and yes,he hurt his PEA-NIS,because i push the table against his PEA-NIS.
he sweat till his pants is soaking wet.
and he got tiny eyes,
he cant remember his brother name.HAH
he is bopeng.
( :

and i DONT LIKE
EKKACHAI TAN.
whats with ROMEO & JULIET?
pfft.

LOADS of things lost in my room.
UGH.
i think im going out tonight.
shopping i loooove.

exam come and go.
YES YES YES !

Keep a tight grip like a child holding onto a swing set,

Waiting and hoping to find what I can't figure out yet,

Please don't unless this is something to me,

Another nightmare instead of a dream,

Better left alone,

Holding onto the phone,

Holding onto this glass,

Holding onto the memory of what didn't last.

Waiting for better words,They'll never come.

So dry your eyes,Its better.

tell me something that's sure to break my heart.

i never lost so much.

2005-05-02T09:32:00.000+08:00

Alkaline Trio - Sorry About That

im back to desktop.
lappie taking a long rest.
ughhh.
i love the book,'Memoirs of a Geisha'
still reading it.
i knoe.i should be studying.
damn it.

im off.
my HE<3rt>

2005-05-01T20:47:00.000+08:00

been studying.
and i hooked on a neww bo0ok.

yess.
so im just here to upload pichas.
i so pictured.
i miss mutoon toup & faaa-eeeeez.
oh boy.

my CUTE brother,or so he think : /

im TRYING to embrace POA.
GOODNIGHT WORLD.

2005-04-30T22:36:00.000+08:00

im feeling very cheeeeapskate today.
scoring the net for free listening of songs;
didnt head for study session.
ughh.
so unproductive.

need to study china;chinese really.
i need to shoot shoot shoot.
whats with he always hanging around with three of us?
i love ol' man,he gives in to my whines.

i need pictures.
yes,so i upload pictured.
yay.
and i need some dreamy story.
yess.
brain juice,i need you..

snuggling under the blanky sounds nice if
u have air con
weather has been hell ..

i need to study..ughh.

2005-04-28T22:07:00.000+08:00

diffcult time it isnt.
its you who is making things diffcult.
mould her and shape her to
be your ragdoll.
YAY.

proper proper,
schooool's grrrreat.
screwed up mt paper.
can kiss a proper goodbye.
geee,maybe the paper would puke or something like thatt.
uhhh : /

boy oh boy,tee vee is cool..
im off for some sleep

2005-04-28T17:10:00.000+08:00

she bulid a world surrounding just the both of them.
they sat on a dusty metal stairs.
with the traffice next to them.
random question,random thoughts.
lovely it is.
hours pass,sitting in silence
maybe sharing the intoxicating wine.

she rest her head on his shoulder
its past 2 am.
roaring of traffic gone.
he ask " what are you thinking ..?"
she replied "nothing really.."
she looks up his sharp chin.
and smiled at him.
their hand clasp together.
bodies entangled
like peanut butter and jam swirl.
she cant explained why.
it felt perfect and she wanted it to be this way.
intoxicated maybe.
not wine,his touch.

every senses in them
felt alive with each touch.
the night passes like
a bullet train.

-end.

2005-04-26T16:38:00.000+08:00

recent shots.
GAH.
<3 pirates.

bye mates. ( :

2005-04-26T16:24:00.000+08:00

life is so WHATEVER.

i think a pic post would be up sooner or later.
anyhooos,stuff between me and the person i mention in the last post
are pretty alright la ( :
thing getting better.

im deciding to head for the sailing trip
or the japan trip or both.
uhhh.
both sound raddy raddy coooooooooooooool.

exam so round the corner.
i need more rings.
YAY!
( :

ok.tonight pic post

2005-04-22T20:21:00.000+08:00

HIE.

life's goooooood.
friends and all.

exam round the corner.
and time to hit the books.
my sleep has gone haywired
for the whole week
gee

i need the weekend to catch up on my sleep.
adam khoo camp tomorrow.
YAY.

anyhooos,its pretty coward of someone
to block me after what has happened.
seriously.
its FUCKEN NEH NEH STUPID TO BLOCK.
i know you LOVE to push all the blame to me.
i know how HUGE your fucken EGO is.
and the respect i have for you is fucken low.
its just the minimal.
i know you cant take rejection.
how LOSER can you get?
but ,IM GLAD LAH
THAT YOU BLOCK ME.
hey,WHO complaning?

Screw you, I didn't like your taste

Anyway, I chose you and that's all gone to waste

It's Saturday, I'll go out

And find another you

2005-04-19T20:30:00.000+08:00

Well well,IM okay.

today was fun.
photoshop was even more fun.
got fucked up by these two mama guys.
EEEYUK.

GAH.
you know what,
Ite students
are between retarded and sub normal
let say the range is between 0-10
anything above 10 its really too smart.
-snorts

And there are always some young punk
from other sec school below my block.
action pack bunch.
GEE.

`deception was all i got from you.

2005-04-18T17:35:00.000+08:00

three weeks down the drain.
i should be happy.
and im absofuckinglutely happy.
its written ALL OVER MY FACE.

i think there nothing to save at all.
fucking proud to have told him.

ALL HAIL BLOGGER PLEASE

thank you -smirks

lets our thank you to blogger
or more likely my thanks to blogger.

i wanna thank blogger for its exsistance in the
internet world.
thanks blogger for enlighten me on what he has been feeling
all along.
thank blogger for helping me out with 2 break up.

A HUGE THANKS !

big mistake it is
and im fucking neh neh glad
i knew about this earlier.
save the heartache.

again,YAY FOR BLOGGER.

and to YOU.

thanks for giving me high hopes
and i hate it.
i suppose you will have her back again.
im SORRY to always have to FORCE you
to TALK to me.
SORRY HOR?
sorry for disturbing your sleep.
i suppose u would be sleeping peacefully from now on.
by the way,im a thorn in your heart?

enlighten me will ya?
many thanks again.

its
OVER -

2005-04-14T22:48:00.000+08:00

ITS FUCKEN FRIDAY IM IN LOOOOOOOOOOVEEEEEEE !

"you make me wanna LA LA...in the kitchen"

FUCKEN FRIDAY.
how i look forward to this day.
uh-huh.<3

i miss ayeww
i miss,darling <33

the bed is beckoning me.
screw history.

2005-04-13T19:08:00.000+08:00

school al-right

im just going thru the motion everyday.
im sick of it.

if only friends who share whats going thru their mind
instead of being stuck up and keep mum about stuff.
when i know something up.
i hate that.

all three of us are just distanced away from each
other.
so fucken neh neh sia.

being so caught up with another life outside school.
gone are the days we would
laugh thru the night on the phone.

bye world.

If things don't work out

Quite the way you planned

It's almost half past two and

I've begun to hate the way you

Smile so smile

And I hope that you

Close your eyes

Block out the pain

Of a thousand lives

I hope that you

Die tonight

Just close your eyes

There goes the light

Smile I'll brave it

While you wave your hand

Goodbye

2005-04-12T19:29:00.000+08:00

you make my heart flutter when you sing,
HAHHA.

btw,nanz songs are nice,
UH-HUH.
kudos to him.
he<3rt hes song, okayy. sometimes,why cant boys just tell the truth? rightt. fahmi.you are such a big fat loser. enough said. things with her has been getting reallie bad. she been spending time with HIM. and us( ayew & me) are always together.. most of her life,she as-ing away. its SO HER. C'MON MAN,who she trying to kid? she denies it of course. she always want it her way. and she will throw her tantrum if she doesnt get her way. i can just GO ON AND ON about her. but why waste time? ok. school was alright ah. lots of lightning but not rain. WTH, ok i should be heading to books. BAH. ) :

night;;EDIT

and the phone is a fine invention
it allows me to talk endlessly to you
about nothing disguising my intentions
which I'm afraid my friend are wildly untrue
it's a sleight of hand, a white soul band,the heart attacks I'm convinced I have every morning upon waking
to you I'm a symbol or a monument
your right of passage to fulfillment
but
I'm not yours for the taking

just thought about what my bro just said to me.
they say he up to something nasty
and i would learn the hard way.
BUT all i know,i love him dearly.

if only he would shower me with the same loving
i give.
i want to shout i love you a zillon times and just hug him real tight.
sound so cliche.
but its true.

i love his imperfection.
it makes him oh-so-ever unique.

maybe im nothing to him.
but i know hes something to me.
love is blind uh?
you dont see what is coming towards you.

maybe i need this night to think thru.

i he3rt him many2

2005-04-11T21:20:00.000+08:00

TOTALLY FUCKEN TIRED.

it was pretty fun tho.
wear the blazer was hot.
took the flowers for vip..
nice ahh

love teh smell.
geeeez.
i think i shall go rest now.
more tml. ( :

2005-04-10T19:31:00.000+08:00

let the picture do the talking.
im lazy.
heaps of lovin -<333

2005-04-10T12:24:00.000+08:00

HELLO WELLO -

so things between him has gone ho-hum.
no idea wots going on.

okayy.
i need to watch loads of movie.
lovey dovey kinds would do.

happy things,
school will end at 10 am tml.
and i have almost the whole day to myself.
till maybe arnd 4 plus.

then im off to school
for pioneer day aka speech day aka pioneer's bdae.
-_-

had late night talk session
with rebbey.
i HE<3RT her and bro.
YAY-NESS.
talked till 2 am with supper inculded.

i need to watch tee-vee.
ding dong there <3

2005-04-08T16:38:00.000+08:00

brought like TWO extra books to school.
DAMN.
im blur.
im off to zzzzz-land.

night;edit edited
had a short phone conv with him..
poor thing..
i wish i could run over to his house and
snuggle up with him.
awwwww
i think im better off with more sleep.
POOF

these hands are missing yours ; it friday,im in love <3

i miss you.get well soon.SUPER DUPER FASTTT <33
-hugs

2005-04-07T23:16:00.000+08:00

i love that boy.
hes sick and he has got no
money to see doc
awwww ) :

pic post later..
having some problems hosting pics.
GAH.

2005-04-07T06:32:00.000+08:00

HELLO HELLO -waves
( :

school have been reallie grrrrrreat i suppose : /
HAH.

i LOOOVEEE friday,its the end of the week and
also i get to meet him.

YAY! YAY!

ok.bye
tonight's update then.

My plug in baby ; And I've seen your loving ; mine is gone

2005-04-03T20:44:00.000+08:00

nasty.
EVERTHING IS NASTY DOWN HERE.

fucking nasty.
those shit ass feeling
why cant everything be simple.
of course not.
some fucktards who come along
and spoil it.

this anger suck the good mood out.
i miss you,
do you know that?

anger all done on homework.

sometimes i get paranoid with stuff
and i dont bother to ask to clear my doubt
its bad,
and i do misunderstand people.
geee

its hell being at home.
wanted to go out with friends
waited waited
i got bored and went for car ride
i clear my thoughts
im so confuse over stuff
i want to ask you,
but it scare the shit out of me

everthing now,is not going to have a nice ending.
i feel it in my bones.
i want the laptop faster
and the wireless adapter
even more faster.
i wanna have the feeling of typing rubbish in the middle of
the night.
i have stupid wishes.

but im stupid enough to get hurt
even tho i know what gonna happen.
im foolish,you can call that.
im keeping quiet
that not QUITE a good solution
everybody will tell me that.
i know.
i have stubborn streak in me.
without a doubt,

i got nothing to look forward to,
perharps he?
love him heaps.
i sound ALOT like a stalker.
gosh.

i dont feel like returning
to my home
just four walls and computer.
HELLO.

home should be the last thing
on my mind everything.
delay as much time as possible
to get myself home.
i think i should just take a long bus journey to
no where,
someday this week,i feel like heading to
somewhere quiet.
i love that place.
i hope to share this to myself.
i need it.

i cant find the same pills
to end this fuck ass misery.

AudioSlave - What You Are

2005-04-02T22:38:00.000+08:00

im wireless.
but im using desktop.
laptop maybe next week.

just came back from dinner.
i cant sleep.
I need in-depth chatties.

here's to a boy who got into my head..
he probaly in dreamland right now
did not had a chance to talk to him

its raining now.
i wanna cuddle up on the bed with
someone special..
YAY-NESS

im poof.

its fucking cheesy teensy pop song.
but it nice LAH.
im talking bout'
mcfly,its all about you.
i think i shall hide in a hole now.
blame the radio.
THANKS. <3

So hold me close and say three words, like you used to do.
Dancing on the kitchen tops, it's all about you.

2005-04-01T17:20:00.000+08:00

i guess he made it with smooches and long hugs.
he3rt him loads .

home is boring.
i WANNA GO OUTT LAH
even hanging at the void deck sounds bloody good to me.
hehehe.

ok.i think i have a lil nap.
before tuition.
HEH.
X )

2005-03-31T20:41:00.000+08:00

somtimes,i really dont know what to do,
go up to you and say im sorry and love you many2
or just wait and wait and wait.

GAH.
in a shitty mood.
miss him lar.
eyyech

2005-03-30T21:06:00.000+08:00

today was pretty horrible.
ONLY tiny wee nii bit of today was still
alright la.

happy with common test chem results,
got 19/25
didnt study for it.
HEH X )

talking about schools,i got MOUTAIN
of POA homework,left untouched.
i shall go explode the pile
within,3 hours,
wish me the best! ( :

michael buble!
wo yong yuan zhi zi ni de wo!!
releasing the groupie in me.
YAY-NESS!
he shall accompany me thru the night.
thru all the tough POA questions.

OHHHH,wth
am i talking,
ok.off i go to the GLOOMY LAND
OF POA.
GAH!

2005-03-29T21:11:00.000+08:00

something numbing me
my heart has drop to the
pit of my tummy.
doing something im not suppose to do.

tonight shall be the night? yes?

on to happier stuff,
dinner for mum's bdae was nice.
phin's steakhouse is nice.
i love my momma,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MOMMA!!
love you to BITS & PIECES.
( :

nothing is working out for me.
i leave you with a once displaced he<3rt with glass
pieces
hoping you cut yourself while saying your last goodbye.
Thanks for abusing me.

2005-03-28T20:50:00.000+08:00

school was good,
home was shit.

deep shit.
eeeeych!
where is he?
when im down,
i play oldies songs,

it works wonderrrs.
im rubishing down here,
no in-dept post
maybe somewhere in the weekend.
hrrmp.
i shall post pichas..GAH

he<3rt> so.

2005-03-27T17:21:00.000+08:00

shopping does wonders.
YESSSS.
bought,more earrings
one fisherman pants.
bands and
a sponge bob boxer.

im wearing the boxer now.
cute la.
nothing much ah today.
i think i shall go and take a looong
rest and read some stories.

im boreedddd.GAH

Night Edit

dinner with family
rocks ass.
my BRUDERRRRR
SOOO sweet lah he.
im guess there is going to be more
of sibs + bro gf day out.
NICE,
dinner dates with both of em and watching plays.
SWEET DEALS.

my dad is pretty horny today,
he horned at a few people on the roaddd.

my granny is so cute,she loves pizza.
and she only likes a CERTAIN type
of pizza,she so coooool bananas.

i think a IN-DEPTH post will be tomorrow,
i have fucking poa homework.
-_-
BYE.

OHHHH YES,
I RINDU AYEWWWW & BUTERRRR.
p.s: i feel indonesian.YESHHHH.

and YESS,
I HE<3RT MY BROTHER HEAPS.
minus the constant irritating-ness.
( :

and MY GRUMPY.
he gave me my POCKET MONEY.
YAY-NESS.
he lied to me saying that,i wont get my pocket money.
but i woke up in the morn and i see 50 bucks on
my table.
ALL HAIL GRUMPY!!!
ALL HAIL GRUMPY!!!

2005-03-26T23:20:00.000+08:00

today was pretty good i must say.
clear my mind.

did heaps of thinking while on the way
back from pasir ris.
i guess im pretty contented with
what im doing now.
cafe biz finished.
single and its nice.
tho it has its ups and downs.

i love all my besties.
ayu and sha.
they rock my balls
so much.
And i guess it sort of nice
to go out with my besties's bf
& me.
nice.
but i badly need a girls day out ( :

no more heartache.
thats good progress.
even tho there was times,
i crave for affection,
those cuddling
and muttering
of sweet nothings.

ahhh,yes.
those 'middle-of-night'
thoughts.
it kills.
i think i slap myself
2315648612 before i could forget about
everything that happen before.
heh. ( :

it does re-appears now & then.
but i guess its slowly going off.
HEHEH ( :

i love my bro even more now a days.
cuz he passing me hes laptop.
so yessssss.
BYE cable.
HELLO wireless.

i forget to add that,
nerdy couples are cute.
saw a few during the weekend.
CUTE LA.

i need new friends.
okayyy,im so in the writting mood
this is a pretty long entry,no rubbish in it.
gooood.

twist me around.

2005-03-25T22:59:00.000+08:00

If you got an eerie feeling after hanging up the phone
Sort of happy feeling but you're not sure what's called
If you're haunted by his face whenever you're asleep at night
And think you hear his silly voice just calling out your name

Oh no! I think I'm in love with you

Oh no! I'm hoping you'll want me too

So please, don't let me down

Just can't help but talk about him in every conversation
Till your friends are sick and tired of that same old crap
If you start wearing make up even when you go to bed
Crying like a baby when you hear a mellow song

Oh no! I think I'm in love with you
Oh no! I'm hoping you'll want me too
So please, don't let me down

today was FUNNNN.

went out with bro & gf

FUNNNNN.

he treated us to swensens.

YUMS YUMS.

thats the HIGHTLIGHT of the day.

hmm.is shall start reading my story book now.

HEH.

( :

2005-03-25T10:27:00.000+08:00

i havent been updating, have i?

yesterday.chinese perios rocks
my balls,talk about GF with zaw.
hehehehe.

english period,we were talking about mammoth,
then zaw look at me one kind,YARR.
and i was also bending my ruler.
it happen that i snap the ruler.
it was as if i was angry la.

but i wasnt.
grrrr.

yesterday tuition was FUNNNNNN.
take loads of pichas.
post later.

2005-03-23T22:13:00.000+08:00

i've been listening to this chinese
song like tons.
eeps : /

its nice tho.
the vid so rock balls.
HEHHEEHHE.

lovely shiat.
it was all thanks to nanz.
OH YES,
he also gave me another MOCCA
song.
ir ROCKS TOO.

fill in the BLANKS,

im so happy._______told me______
i waited for _____.
like ___________.
i STILL _________.
i really hope _______the same too.

___ ____ to ___.

HEH.

2005-03-22T22:24:00.000+08:00

back in just for a QUCKIE

had common test today.
TOTALLY screwed up
my SS paper.
YAY-NESS!

sports day was rubbishy.
eeps : /

dinner was GGGGREAT
hehe.
had the LOUDEST burp and
everyone look at me.
HEH ( :
rock balls la

loads of laughter everywhere.
off i GO.

im DYING to let you know,i can NEVER let you GO

my ears are stuck onto MOCCA.
favv band right at the mo.

ok.i feel like SHIT RIGHT NOW.
am feeling so bitchy i could just shoot off anything in my head now,
GAHHHH.
burn that GIRL in HELL
THAT GIRL.
grrrr.
) :

BLOODY HELL.
double GRRRRR

2005-03-21T22:39:00.000+08:00

talked to him just now
in msn.
weird.
he is saying hes DYING?
eeps : /

kinda worried
ahhh ) :

GAHH!
back to studying.
) :

2005-03-20T13:48:00.000+08:00

had my lunch and now im
contented LAH.

listening to the song.
its THAT song.
sucker for acoustic songs.
esp THAT song.

the singing aint great.
but its the closer thing i get
to remember.

HOHO.
i need help for poa.

HEEEELLLLLLPPPP.
HEEEEEEEEEEELLLLLPPP

2005-03-20T12:58:00.000+08:00

HELLO ( :

right.im back from chalet.
it was GGRRRRREAT one.

amazing bonding session with cousin
and mak cik except,auntie nita.
HAH.

yessss.
stuffing ourselves with tons of food.
its was mostly MEAT lah
i dont feel like touching chicken.
BLEAH.

yesterday was the best,
hahahahah.
played tennis
and BOY, was it fun.

the best was hanging out at
the driveway,
laughing the night away.
fun fun fun.

im done,with physics
english,left with summary,
maths left with 2 qns
and POA,untouched.

GAHHH!
better get going.
BYE.

2005-03-17T22:52:00.000+08:00

i GOT high just now.
eating all those sour plums.
i miss him to the moon and back & he doesnt knoes it.
agrhhh.
good night world.
i wanna go back to the dream i had with this ang mohhhh BUTCH.
boy oh boyy !

as we slowly broke contact more and more with every beer
and we passed out in each other's arms
both admitting we'd never felt better
( :

2005-03-17T16:16:00.000+08:00

another post of random pichas.
boy am i bored of ENGLISH.

L-O-V-E eeeps : /

BYE for now.
having tuition laterr.
i think i go catch a nap . ( :
i need hugs.

2005-03-17T13:23:00.000+08:00

Random Pictures.
it seems,i still miss him
silly me.

You set fire to me that night, you lit and left me burning
Well I'll sit here to convince myself its true
Holes in walls and bleeding fists

My friends and I try to tell me you're gone
Won't listen to myself or anyone
You got on a plane and off you went
You're never coming back again

2005-03-16T23:46:00.000+08:00

everytime,night falls
i will drop to my lowest point,
sighhhh

i dont even think i have a the right
to even say,i miss you.

it's mind-numbing to think of yesterday
I'd run to you now if I could
but things have changed

it's mind-numbing to think of yesterday
we'll look towards the stars
and dream that we're airplanes

2005-03-16T18:28:00.000+08:00

ALL I NEED IN THIS LIFE OF SIN IS,ME & MY GIRLFRIENDS.hehehe ( :

OHHH,plus my two BARS of dark BABEYS,thanks faiz.<333

2005-03-16T17:35:00.000+08:00

HELLO HELLO ( :

just had a GRRRRREAT
bonding session with
the one and ONLY,AYUUUUUU.
- hugs

took LOADS
of rubbish pics.
we went up all the wayyyy
to the top of the carpark.

very good excersie.
HAHAH.
at least,this will get him of my mind for
a lil while. ( :

we talk about everything
boyfriends,ex,pictures.
over TWO meals of KFC.
and the void deck,

pure bliss
picture will be up in
awhile.

oh YESSSS!
forget to add
that FAIZ.
he gave me not one,
but TWO BARS
of dark chocs.
soooooo love him to
death mann.HOHO.

SIMEI,boring place.
grrrrr.
thats all
picture post laterrr.
SMOOCH

2005-03-16T09:05:00.000+08:00

im starting my day
with
sterophonics - maybe tomorrow

ohhhh yes,
meeting FAIZ
today.

coooooool
banana.
and i have to go
ALL THE WAY
to SIMEI.

aiyoooooooo.
but i still want my
PRESSIE FAIZ!

heh ( :
PICHAS LATERRR
at the end of the
-HUGS

2005-03-16T00:37:00.000+08:00

heyy loo

it 12.38am
and my eyes are closing.

i need to wake up early
tml.
cuz im meeting that guy,
after an hour of deciding when he can make it or not.
AIYO BABE.
hahaha.

so its all set,metting him at simei
at 11.30am.
YAY-NESS.
WOOOTS!

cant wait to get
this SO CALL present
from him.
it has been AGES,FAIZ.

haha.
pichas tml babey

- tight HUGS
&
- HUGE grin ( :

2005-03-15T19:01:00.000+08:00

Since we drank to the sunset.. until it was gone and down with it went our pain and fear

It seems like it's been so long since we kissed through the darkness until it was dawn Up with it came our pain and fear

today was good,shopping.
YAY-ness.
blog more LATEER.

2005-03-14T22:40:00.000+08:00

dinner was nice.
me and dad made fun of this
guy who was sitting at the next table.

he was like,repeating the last
few words to his wife at every SENTANCE
he spoke.
the wife gave a very stoned face then continued
eating.
HAHAHAHAH.

right? right?
-wife stoned

haha.funny.
me and dad were like
dad-RIGHT?
me- RIGHT!

heehee.
oooh yeah.
i better start doing my work.
GAH.
piles of them untouched.
GAH.

gonna wake up early tml.
to take sunrise.
if im EVER gonna wake up.
ok.NIGHT NIGHT
( :

2005-03-14T18:55:00.000+08:00

the sunsets aint the same anymore..
lets go back to the start ( :
lovely.
took it at 6.51pm
-grins

2005-03-14T15:19:00.000+08:00

Though the sea will be strong
I know we'll carry on

To sing this summer serenade
The past is done we've been betrayed

Ransom Letter

so you stole my heart, and left me a ransom letter
demanding I treat you better, should I ever want it back and
now I'm all alone
dreams are all forgotten, memories all turned rotten, it's not
the same on the phone
so what's up girl?
things haven't changed a bit since we last met
I bet my bottom dollar you're the best, girl that I ever had
I never wanna lose you
so what's up?
I can't let you walk away
we planned to live forever in each others arms
so
please hold on
you know-no one will love you like i do!
and that's the thing-you know it too
I hear our song; it keeps playing on the radio
you're on my mind, I can't let you go
I'm all alone and I just want you to hold
please take my hand. never let me go
I hear our song it keeps playing on the radio
you're on my mind, I can't let you go
please make your mind up, don't see what the future holds

this song on repeat,like FOREVER.
HAH.
another song in my head is,
Saosin- i can tell.
( :

2005-03-14T14:42:00.000+08:00

its the HOLIDAY.
school OUT
holiday IN.

but i dont feel it.
DUH

i got tons of homework
and another common test
next week,

let me list down the home work i have,
POA
Chemistry
Physics
Maths
English

and DNT,need to finish my fucking
folio on developed idea
and god-knows-what-else.

fine..i think im going down later to take
stupid pic AGAIN.
im sick of staying at home.
so boring..
hmmm,around 4 plus later uhh

btw,HEYY TOOT BOY ! ( :

gotta run.
later guys..

2005-03-13T23:56:00.000+08:00

a lil bit more on what i did today,
well,came back from shopping
told my mum meeting freinds to
get some thing,but actually
i went round my blocks taking useless pics
and just sitting down thinking.
HAH.
so emo.
HAH.

ok,so here are some random picchas!

GRRRRR;;i <3 this picha at the moment.HAH ( :

always wanted to take a picha in the lift,uber BORED la : /

such a beauty,took it from my kitchen,prettyy prettyy ( :

took this just now,another pretty thang,yay!

im feeling,
time for coffee refill.
HEH.
ice cold coffee babey,
-grins

2005-03-13T21:59:00.000+08:00

YAY!!!
can log in AT LAST!!

oooh boy!
i couldnt update my blog for like a WEEK
GOSH,whoops of joy when i cloud log into
my blogger!!

hehehe,
alright guys,i leave you guys some post
i wrote in Words Doc cuz i couldnt post it..yep

i think this post was on a tuesday?

ok.
today was nice only at the END OF THE WHOLE

DAMN DAY!
yuppers.me and fi

were preparing food when i started

smacking fi ass!

BWAHAHHAdamn fun lahh!!

we were smacking each other ass.

HOHO!

cai yi joined in too.hahaha.

zaw also got intrested.

all four of us were smacking ass la.
so cafe was pretty fun

cuz of the ass smacking thing.(( :

im SICKKKK

went home with sab & ayu.

saw him.HEARTS STOP.

and ayu & sab got crazy and followed him

and screamed my name SUPER DUPER

WHOOPER LOUD.

i sat under his blockwith my heart in my throat.

very very scared.

i THINK i saw him AGAIN when i was under the multi purpose hall.

he was sitting at the green bench
i DONT KNOW.

if YOU are reading this,im sorry,really sorry
actually,zaw wanted to exchanged bags,then he bloody hell changed his mind

hrrrmp.i think he look funny in ROXY BAG.hohohoho

i think i shall scratch my eyes out now

and sing PROMISE till i sleep.BAHHHHH!

FOR TODAY..

righttoz,another BORING DAY LAHH

only thing good about today was that

i went shopping.UH-HUH

went to get adidas shirt.

next wekk got MORE shopping

to be done.HEH

actually,i got LOADS of

stuff to tell..

hmmm,YARR

laterr got picture post..only my FACE LAH

hahaha

LATERRR

2005-03-07T21:50:00.000+08:00

IM SOOOOO IN LOVE WITH
JASON MRAZ!!

but hey,if i could still have HIM back that would be NICER
LAHHHH!!

ok.BYE

2005-03-07T17:43:00.000+08:00

ok.
my ears are back to being NORMAL.
was having only one stud for the past week
sort of being a BUTCH.
im a GIRL again

heh.LAME.
i deleted some entry cuz it was
too lame.
HAHA.LAME.

ok.BYEEE

2005-03-07T12:35:00.000+08:00

im stuck at home with
my IRRITATING 28 YEAR OLD
PIECE OF CRAP WASTE.
ok.thats my brotherrrr.

he say i LIKE MAT ROCKER.
uhhh..WHATEVER BRO!
besides,they are YOUNGER and
sing BETTER than you.

went to doc to get mc
in the bus,the MIC auntie
got fishy odour.
FUHHHH,power pack mann
it hits you in the face.
MIND YOU,i was sitting like
4 seats away -.-
mind blowing effect!

i SEARCHING FOR CHEENA GUYS now.
just show up at my door lahhh.

btw,i miss a whole bunch of boring lesson.
that radd!
uh-huh -nods

i still got piles and piles
of hmework not done
HOHO

laterrrrr raddy peeps! ( :

2005-03-06T21:42:00.000+08:00

he came up
to me in msn
and said hie
and we talked about songs.
BUT HEY,
the songs we talked were
mostly my fav songs
so yeah,
that nice ( :

something are holding me back from
telling him ahhh..

i wish this week wasnt ending so soon,
sighhhh.
i guess its hopeless believing on my side..

dinner was nice,YUM

by the way,im a sucker for sweeet talk.
YEAAAAAA

i want a boy
who kises me goodnight
who says i love you and meant it
who holds my hand
who is taller
or same height,will do ( :

and the LIST goes on..

im blabering rubbish..

goodnight night!

i miss you.
i miss everything about you.

2005-03-06T18:47:00.000+08:00

im getting in TOUCH with my inner geek ( :

i loook cute laaa. ((:
tag me if you disagree,yeah?

does making LOUD kissing sound nice?

ok it nice la. ( :

btw,just now i was eating chips,
my bro threw a 50 cent coin
into the bag of chips
and now its inside
and i cant find it
-.-"

there a prize in the bag of chips
BWAHAHHA
first time ahh.
-beams

how the lastest skin?
so vintage mann
(( :

my daddy flower ahh
just because i never go to my
gramps house.
haha
funny look on his face.

2005-03-06T13:05:00.000+08:00

HEY HO! -waves

feeling worse.
BUT HEY!
im aint going to
school tml
and that rocks balls
lahhh

i got a leaky nose
and a HUSKY voice
so yeahh
hehehe

btw,the chocolate cake
havent been cut
and i hunger for a HUGE slice
i believe it will cure my sore throat.
-.-
fight fire with fire, in other words..
that dumb

i got piles of homework
and i havent done a single bit of it..
im such a procrastinator

LALALALLALA
im off to watch JAPAN HOUR.

BYE BYE BYE BYE.

i wanna poison his BLACK BLACK HEART.

2005-03-05T22:36:00.000+08:00

bro and gf hugging each other and sleeping
cant help but STARE.

sweet la both of them
bwahahaha
-.-
do i sound like a pervert?

they are sleeping
and so my eating feast
gotta wait..hrrrmph

chcolate cake..
ill dream of you tonight ah!

if i were a guy,
i would dream licking
hot fudge over lindsay lohan..
hmm.

BWAHHAHAHA
my ULTIMATE FANTASY
for the time being laaa

im sick
and im this close to getting my mc
this makes me deliriously happy
( :

JOY OHHH JOY ((( :
i think im intoxicated with pandol.hrrmp

love is not like anything
but a FUCKING KNIFE .

period.

2005-03-05T20:19:00.000+08:00

i think im a stalker.
YEAHH-HA

i got loads of things to say but i forget
i wanna fill the WHOLE page up..huehuehue

i woke up like,8 am
bloody early lahhh
then watched hunky cook
jamie oliver.
AHHHHH,such a CUTIE

get into shit with MOMMA
and then went out for lunch
at adam rd.

afternoon went to jb..
this SICK custom officer
gave a VERY VERY sick
and pervertic look.
OH MY LORDD

i so wanted to shove
my middle finger up his m'sian
ass..GOD

those small beady eyes of his
was SICK.

ok ok.enough of that.

i realise shahida gave a REALLY REALLY
dumb nick for 3 of use.
im called GHEE,

laugh all you want guys,
im stuck with such a UGLY
nick for NOW.

GAHHH

im still hoping and praying
im getting an MC for monday and tuesday
HEHEHEHEHHE ( :

i think i failed a whole bunch of subjects.HOHO
joy oh joy!

what else ehhh...
there's gonna be CAKE CUTTING laterr
cant wait cant wait
but then its for my BRO bdae..
oh wells..

hmmmm,
LANA cake,
hmmmmm
thick thick CHCOLATE CAKE
YUM YUM ( :

picture later..
uh-huh..

2005-03-05T20:02:00.000+08:00

this song has been on repeat the WHOLE day.
hm..CHEERS!

MATCHBOOK ROMANCE - PROMISE

what would you say if i asked you not to go
would you forget everyone, forget everything and start over with me
would you take my hand and never let me go
well promise me you'll never let me go

and well now the stars aren't out tonight,
but neither are we to look up at them
why does hello feel like goodbye?
if these memories can't replace,
these wishes i wished and these dreams i chased
take this broken heart and make it right

i feel like i've lost everything when you're gone
left remembering what it's like to have you here with me
i thought you should know,
you're not making this easy
i never thought i'd be the one to say
please don't, well please don't leave me
i feel like i've lost everything when you're gone
left remembering what it's like to have you here with me

i thought you should know,
you're not making this easy
you're not making this easy... (easy, easy, easy...)
take my hand and never let me go,
take my hand and never let me go,
promise me...

you'll never let go
you'll never let go
you'll never let go
you'll never let go

make this last forever
i feel like i've lost everything when you're gone
left remembering what it's like to have you here with me
i thought you should know, you're not making this easy

you're not making this easy
you're not making this easy
you're not making this easy
you're not making this easy

i'll fall asleep tonight, cause that brings me closer to you

2005-03-05T19:56:00.000+08:00

i said what i wanted
from my he<3rt..

btw,nepal guys are hot
and JB's guys are sick and
pervertic bunch..

give me nepal's guy anytime
larhh..

my bro's gf over at my house.
hmmm.
ate loads of pizza
and see loads of
mushy mushy stuff they did,

EEPS :

ellie <3 over and out. ( :

2005-03-04T21:50:00.000+08:00

remember the good times we had?
even though it was short.
it was really great.

all those thought of you & me
makes my heart wrench
till i can hardly breathe.

all those hate are gone
i realise you make me feel
so much special.

do you remember,
when you said you love me and never let me go?
i dont.
its stuck in my he<3rt.

i want to tell you,
i miss you so much.
how much i want you by my side
how much i want you to hold my hand
and wander aimlessly
how much your presence makes up
a huge part of my life.

i gave myself to this week.
nothing is happening.
i trying so hard not to give up
but i guess i have to..

i tried to work this out,
i felt i lost everything
when you were gone,
only memories of us were left..

my he<3rt aches so so badly for YOU.
) :

2005-03-04T21:33:00.000+08:00

i hope so HARD that im not the ONLY
ONE who is pinning away for YOU..

-sniff

2005-03-04T19:19:00.000+08:00

im SICKKK.
so im lazy to talk.
cabot drama and cafe.
snoooze the whole afternoon.
YAY!

my lunch that i ate. eggs LAA. :

Peace to ya.HURRRR. ( :

* BEST LOOKS * after school that is and new hairr. hohoho ( :

2005-03-03T19:42:00.000+08:00

you also wish that there was that one person there who'd let you lie on their shoulder, to pull you close and hold you, to let you take a whiff of their scent, to try and make you smile when you're down, to smile with you when you are happy, to hold you tight so that you wouldn't falter, to assure you so that you have the strength to go and face your fears, to hold your hand and walk with you side by side. to tell you that they love you, for who you are.

yea.

how i wish.

i miss him loads.

nothing much to talk

i just cut my hair.

pretty pretty lil thing.

it still cant beat what im

feeling now..

sometimes we blame each other

on how we turned out..

i he<3rt>

u MANY MANY!

GAHHH!

2005-03-02T22:05:00.000+08:00

Come up to meet you,
Tell you I'm sorry,
You don't know how lovely you are.

I had to find you,
Tell you I need you,
Tell you I set you apart.
Tell me your secrets,
And ask me your questions,
Oh, let's go back to the start.

Runnin' in circles,
Comin' up tails,
Its only science apart.
Nobody said it was easy,
It's such a shame for us to part.

Nobody said it was easy,

No one ever said it would be this hard.

Oh, take me back to the start.

I was just guessing,

At numbers and figures,

Pulling the puzzles apart.

Questions of science,

Science and progress,

Do not speak as loud as my heart.

Tell me you love me,

Come back and haunt me,

Oh, when I rush to the start.

Runnin' in circles, Chasin' tails,

Comin' back as we are.

Nobody said it was easy,

Oh, it's such a shame for us to part.

Nobody said it was easy,

No one ever said it would be so hard.

I'm goin' back to the start.

i <3>

only you.

2005-03-02T18:44:00.000+08:00

HEYYY!!

errr,i think im using blogger again.
HUEHUEHUE.

so whats up?
now my WHOLE LIFE
only have CAFE
so siccck laa
but then its fun laaa

been walking home like
EVERYDAY.
miss doing that ahhh
always me & sab,
i walk and sing
ONLY ONE,
LOUDD LOUDD!!
haha

always walking by his block.
nothing happens.
i miss talking on the phone for LONG LONG!
aiyoo

hmm,ayu busy ahh
sha busy too
elyssa busy also

AIYO!!

I MISS THEM TO BITS & PIECES !

I ,JULIE ELYSSA LIM,
IS HAPPY TODAY.

no test,no homework
plus im hungry!

What can be done in order for you to perceive that

I'm Not falling behind?That's your vision, your delusion I was

Here to begin

You interrupted our conclusions but we haven't begun

And you've placed your number one instead

So what, I'm different

Would you prefer if we were all like her?

You see the external illusions

We're all the same

I don't want to be gone-I don't want to be

When I am around

What do you want to see?

She...someone who isn't me

I don't want to be

Invisible

When will this end, on who we will depend

And you're looking for the trend, from the one who came along

And now we've changed, who's to blame?

No one other than the other

We'll get back to where we were,never longing over what's preferred

You never listened, told us to mind our business

Lies tried to ride your feelings

words hide behind their meanings

2005-02-26T17:59:00.000+08:00

my <3 looks like that...so grey,so dark,so bleak
it just keeps raining and raining..

he is my fav cleaner boy.he makes the ugly job sounds so nice,mates for 3 years ( :

its still raining.
the future look so so bleak
i dont even dare to think of it

you are my konstantine

Who got into my head

With all these fucked up things I did.

My Konstantine

You spin around me like a dream

We played out on this movie screen

And i said

Did you know I missed you?

2005-02-26T12:56:00.000+08:00

i was mumbling
in my sleep last night
must be TOTALLY EXHAUSTED
uh-huh -nods

i ended the 2 days of heartache
with ben& jerry's cookie dough ice cream
it makes me smile so much ( :

yesterday,
the CAFE was opened,
it was a WAR ZONE.
wahhhhhhhhh
i was running up and down
the counter
teachers said it was nice
and asked me where i got the popcorn machine.
hehehehhe

hmmm,there was mistakes with some money prob
so i left halfway.
i walked home from school,met ayu & sab
so we walked ayu to the bus stop infront of sab's block

came home,dumped my bag,bathe
eat dinner
then i sleep the whole night
and woke up like 8.30am
and watched the HUNKY COOK
jamie oliver..wooots!

i was emoing today arnd the house this morning and my bro
asked me whats wrong? awwwwwww
SO NICE OF HIM LAAAA
so i told him.

in the end,he said that was a classic story
i guess he done it before.
then i went back under my blanket.

BEN & JERRY'S ICE CREAM ROCKS! \M/

2005-02-25T04:33:00.000+08:00

its so early in the morning.
and its friday.

i aint feeling much better
the regretted part has just started
and oh well...

gonna make annoucement later.
dont feel grreat for that.

i just feel like staying in
all day.
and sleep....

You and me

We used to be together

Every day together always

I really feel

tat I'm losing my best friend

I can't believe

This could be the end

It looks as though you're letting go

And if it's real,

Well I don't want to know

Don't speak I know just what you're saying

So please stop explaining

Don't tell me 'cause it hurts

Don't speak I know what you're thinking I don't need your reasons

Don't tell me 'cause it hurts

Our memories They can be inviting

But some are altogether

Mighty frightening

As we die, both you and I

With my head in my hands I sit and cry

t's all ending I gotta stop pretending who we are...

You and me I can see us dying

... are we?

2005-02-24T22:25:00.000+08:00

to NANZ*:

i wanted to explain things to you
TOMORROW.
u said u already know the answer.
i dont want u to jump to conculsion.
i told you i forgive you.
u kept quiet.

i dont care what happened between u and her.
its over.
history,u cant do anything about it.
i understand that.

i was shocked,the time i saw your blog.
i read it over and over again.
trying to understand it

i know u ask your friend
to act on my behalf.
kudos to you.thanks alot
from the bottom of my heart.

i now i sounded so fucked up
over the phone.
you try to put yourself in my shoes,
i mean its so diffcult to even tell u how
i feel,when i havent recover from my shock

i need time,and i dont mean like 1 week
or something like that.

all this is happening too fast..

i remember last friday,
you asked me,whether i love u ?
i said yes.
and i REALLY REALLY meant
what i said.
and i ask u the same qns back.u said yes too,

before i met u,it was like 70%
after meeting you,it was so much more than that.
and i already told you,i want to work things out
you said ok and how?
i said i wanted to know u more.

and then now,all these things happened.
and i just put down the phone with you.
im sure i will regret it tml,that i never
said whatever i wanna tell you tonight.

i really put my heart into this
and then it ended just like that?

i get so fucked up with myself
for not saying all those things.
so fucked up..
and i still love you.,
thats really fucked up
fucked up

feel like CRYING????
AGRHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

Here I go, scream my lungs out and try to get to you

You are my only one

I let go, there's just no one that gets me like you do

You are my only, my only one

Made my mistakes, let you down

And I can't, I can't hold on for too long

Ran my whole life in the ground

And I can't, I can't get up when you're gone

You think I'd leave your side baby?
You know me better than that
You Think I'd leave you down when you're down on your knees?
I wouldn't do that.
I'll tell you you're right when you're wrong...

And if only you could see into me...
Oh when you're cold I'll be there to hold you tight to me
When you're on the outside baby and you can't get in
I will show you, you're so much better than you know
When you're lost, and you're alone and can't get back again
I will find you darling, and I'll bring you home
And if u want to cry I am here to dry your eyes,
and in no time you'll be fine.....

You think I'd leave your side baby?
You know me better than that.
Think I'd leave you down when you're down on your knees?
I wouldn't do that
I'll tell you you're right when you want

If only you could see into me....
Oh when you're cold I'll be there to hold you tight to me, baby.
Ohh when you're alone I'll be there by your side baby, by your side baby.
Oh when your cold I'll be there to hold you tight to me, to me baby.
Ohh when you're alone I'll be there by your side baby.

the truth is that,i still love you

sigh,maybe its just too late uh?

to me,it shall maintain,this way

i love you.

2005-02-23T18:11:00.000+08:00

OKAYYYY.
94 bucks for hp bill
AMAZING or what?
aiyoo
got into DEEP DEEEP
SHIT

ahhh.whatever la
had a crappy day
school was rubbish
to start off,
i packed the WRONG
timetable
DNT was full of shit
got into the wrong kind of shit
with teacher

pratical was USELESS
gave excuse,told teacher i was NOT
feeling good
which was rubbish
of course.

did the deco for CAFE
and i feel so shitty
and tired now
and i dont know
what to do now

yesterday was grrreat
( :
love you*

2005-02-21T22:28:00.000+08:00

WOOOOTS!!

having monday blues
but then when i talk to
him,it rocks my balls laa

hehehehe
i think ayu & sha cannot take
the love shit from me
tahahahahahaha

awwwww.
today,almost felldown
becasue i trip over the STUPID
baggg
zaw like laugh shit

hahahaahah
ok la,i ssoooooo tired,
update another day!

ps: tml is a VERY VERY VERY VERY
SPECIAL DAY LA,tell ya tml
( :

2005-02-19T16:15:00.000+08:00

all that distance makes me sick?

hmmm,feeling kinda distance with best friends
all have different timetable
and i have the CAFE biz
and then drama.
although,all of us are free on wednesday but
we always end up going our own ways.

sha with hadi,everyday after school
without fail and if i follow em,its like
so extra and they both sweet talk to each other,
and what? listen to them..errr,NYHEE
so yeah ( :

ayu? she with with sandy and mich and their projects
and her guys probs,aiyooo
but at least we do our duty together
so its aint that bad.hoho

im trying to live with that arrangement,
but its kinda hard,when all three of us
used to do all kind of stuff together.
yeahhh.
always missing them,day in day out,24/7
AWWWWWWW ) :

im meeting him on tuesday?
yep.
he is a huge add on to me
and he is grrreat.
is this the part where is say i love him?
yeah,i love him.hahahah

i love my NURHIDAYU,SHAHIDA,NANZ
hehehe.

LOADS of birthday are coming up.
gotta burn a hole in da pocket.
ahhhh.

im hvaing MANY2 test next week.
english and maths common test,physics,
chemistry.
POA suck la.GAHHHHH!!

gotta have my english tea-time.
hmm,dainty lil cups for my HUGE hands..
hahaha,and a bowl of sugarr cubes
scones or muffin?
MUFFIN!!

i love you*

2005-02-13T20:09:00.000+08:00

MATCHBOOK ROMANCE-LOVER & LIARS

XX I hope you choke on every word you spoke when you were screaming at me.

I realize how many times you tried, but that's wishful thinking.

All I want is an apology for what you did and how you treated me.

Get me far away, or at least as far as this car will take me.

Tell all your friends about me. XX

im moody.

you wanna cheer me up or not?

hmmmm

STUPID LIES

FUCK YOUR BULLSHIT.

FUCK YOUR SWEET TALK.

FUCK THOSE LATE NIGHT PHONE CALLS.

FUCK THOSE TOUCHY FEELINGS.

FUCK THOSE LOVER BOY STARE.

I HOPE THE NEXT GIRL WHO KISSES YOU DIE FROM YOUR

POISONED LIPS.

FUCK YOU.

im feeling LOADS better.

gee,it rocks balls,getting this out

of my system.

HAAAAAAYAK

BYE.

2005-02-13T13:37:00.000+08:00

No doubt- Dont Speak

You and me
We used to be together
Every day together
always .

I really feel
That I'm losing my best friend
I can't believe
This could be the end .

YOU, i miss you.
i hope and wish you feel the same.
i was too caught up with other stuff
to even ask if things were okay.

Sorry, meet up soon okay?
-hugs

2005-02-13T03:09:00.000+08:00

first post

new blog.
change the link will ya?
-hugs

met up with di today
pass him the cd and went straight to granny house.
im suppose to meet faiz but then he
couldnt make it.
: (

well,i love HIM* and i guess he know about it ahh
ive been getting in loads of shit with my dad.
pain in the ass.
ayu and sha didnt turn for school
for friday. : (
boring like shit mann
miss em' loads
heehee

greeley estates-Tear My World Apart : )